{"id":9658,"date":"2007-05-01T20:32:00","date_gmt":"1999-11-29T23:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/dreambeingone.wordpress.com\/2007\/05\/01\/doubts\/"},"modified":"2007-05-01T20:32:00","modified_gmt":"1999-11-29T23:00:00","slug":"doubts","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/?p=9658","title":{"rendered":"Doubts"},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote>\n<p>\u00a0\n<\/p>\n<p>Where do I go? A single question haunts me like a nightmare. I tried hard to wake up, yet will not until the morning comes. It would have been much easier, if I did not have any choices. I have been wondering; maybe\u00a0life\u00a0could be much easier also if I were admitted into an U.S uni; and if only I was admitted. However, I was not&#8230;<\/p>\n<div>\u00a0<\/div>\n<div>Never wanted to give up the hope that I may actually have the chance to go to U.S., so much hope that I put on the results of the waitlist admission. It was just kinda foolish; I always knew that I would not stand even a chance. This is just weird, but sometimes it was just this coward in me that sustain this faintest hope of mine.<\/div>\n<div>\u00a0<\/div>\n<div>Yes indeed, I was offered the opportunity to study at one of the top universities in the world. But gosh! Do I want to go to this school ruthlessly while putting the whole family of mine under this pressure?! Will I be able to take the responsibility and withstand the pressure?! I could have just stayed&#8230; and by staying there will be nothing for me to lose while nothing much to gain either&#8230; <\/div>\n<div>\u00a0<\/div>\n<div>There maybe two ways: one of my favourite schools, probably the best undergraduate education in the whole wide world; one of the most unquestionable path that one may follow, to stay, to settle, to find a life that is pacified&#8230; One of the most expensive education in the world, cannot imagine how am I going to pay for the fees; easiest way to carry out university education, scholarship, tuition grant, career opportunities readily available in the future&#8230; Two so distinct way that I may lead in the future; yet I&#8217;ll have to choose between one of these.<\/div>\n<div>\u00a0<\/div>\n<div>Do I leave, or do I stay? Leaving the place; it will be much more like leaving a life, a lifestyle, a long period of memory&#8230; Nonetheless if I stay, will I REGRET? Such ambivalence is driving me crazy&#8230; I just hope that I will see a lighted, guided path&#8230; If no one is bringing me a lantern, how can I see through the mist?!<\/div>\n<div>\u00a0<\/div>\n<div><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" style=\"left:6px;visibility:visible;vertical-align:text-bottom;top:5px;\" height=\"587\" alt=\"\" src=\"http:\/\/byfiles.storage.msn.com\/x1pLtF5wJ1--PcixiXccmwsvz6Mh717U5UVtw3bTsTNgkWN188nRqAGYLqNEq0xXeq6exK5-2aOWDrq18nRpEWy-x9XekI0sbISOFj5KOJtEVjMLgs3uxOkmg\" width=\"400\" \/><\/div>\n<div>\u00a0<\/div>\n<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0 Where do I go? A single question haunts me like a nightmare. I tried hard to wake up, yet will not until the morning comes. It would have been much easier, if I did not have any choices. I have been wondering; maybe\u00a0life\u00a0could be much easier also if I were admitted into an U.S [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9658","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9658","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=9658"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9658\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=9658"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=9658"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.cenci.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=9658"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}